25 Interesting facts about me…

  1. I was born on Friday 4th January 1991 in Manchester, UK
  2. I have 1 brother and 2 sisters
  3. My parents are still together and have been for 28 years
  4. In my life I have had 10 pets (4 cats, 4 dogs and 2 rabbits) – not including fish
  5. When I was younger I used to enter competitions to win books – I won 3 times!
  6. My favourite colour is blue
  7. I sleep walk and sleep talk if I’m stressed – creepy, I know
  8. I am a psychiatric nurse and received my degree on 8th December 2012
  9. I have had 3 serious relationships in my life – still in 1 right now
  10. I don’t like the sound of other people chewing
  11. My favourite TV show is New Girl and I aspire to be like Jessica Day.
  12. I have a slight obsession with floral and patterned dresses
  13. I am a sentimental little mess
  14. I feel that I should be doing something different with my life – just not sure what
  15. I’m an iPhone user since 2012
  16. For me, love means laughter
  17. I moved to Melbourne Australia on Sunday 8th September 2013
  18. Since moving here, I have realised who my true friends are
  19. I think I should have trained to be a teacher
  20. I love photography
  21. I am so excited to buy a house and make a family
  22. Family is the most important thing for me
  23. I used to hate water – I now try to drink 1.5 litres a day
  24. I have a chocolate addiction
  25. I love lists

30 Day Photo Challenge

Hi all! 

I’ve decided to complete a 30 day photo challenge over on my instagram! I started yesterday. 

I love taking photos and I’ve become complacent in my uploads so decided to set myself a challenge where I can share a photo a day. 

I’m sure I should have started on the 1st of a month but I’m rebellious what can I say! 

Here is my list of challenges which I found on Pinterest:


Go over to my instagram and have a look! And let me know if you’d like to join in!! 

But that’s mine

For the past 9 months I was back filling a maternity leave position at work. I was given the great opportunity for a temporary promotion into a position which I have fallen in love with.

Not only do I now have my own desk, but I get to work with one of my best friends every day. From always working shift work, having a Monday – Friday 7:00-15:00 job is such an eye opener. Weekends are now fun and I look forward to the ‘Friyay’ feeling.

I have been able to step up and show my manager what I can do. I have been able to improve processes and communication between my team and others along with ensuring that documentation is completed. I have proven that whilst under my ‘management’ our department hit an all time high since 2013.

Did I get a pat on the back or a well done? Unfortunately not, but I did get to feel proud. Proud of me and my colleague. Proud of the work we have done, the achievements we have gained and the respect we have earned from management.

Today my little bubble popped.

The lady I have been covering for came back today. She is now my manager and therefore has taken my little role. I have been demoted, and with that I feel deflated. If I picture how I look today, a sad little balloon who has lost its air, looking up at all the other balloons getting on with their happy little lives in the sky.

I now need to work on taking a step back. Not only from my role but my responsibilities. I have to take that step back from having a management hat on and sitting back down with the rest of the world and plodding on. Getting back into that production line and following orders.

This makes me sad.

Sad that I am no longer given praise for my work, but she will be. Sad that I no longer have tough decisions to make, but she does. Sad that I don’t get to call myself a manager, but she can.

All I want to do is send her an email, telling her that this role isn’t her, it’s me. But instead, I laugh at her jokes, I smile as she completely ignores me in emails, coo at her baby photos.

Maybe one day. One day I will find another position like the one I just gave up. One that will give me a sense of pride and happiness.

Until then, back to the life I once knew. One where I have a manager and dream of bigger things.

Life as a psych nurse

I qualified as a Registered Mental Health Nurse in 2012.

Since then, I’ve had two nursing jobs and multiple promotions.

My first job was working in a forensic medium secure hospital in the UK. I worked with a number of patients who suffer from a joint diagnosis of learning disabilities and mental health problems. It was an eye opener to say the least.

On a day to day basis I would be thrown challenges from men who would self harm for tactile stimulation, men who had a history of murder, rape, assault and arson. Men who from a learning disability were so childlike in their manner.

I worked with a man who had been diagnosed with Schizophrenia. He was a man of little words but I always remember one conversation that I had with him. We were stood in the kitchen on the ward, he was making himself a coffee and turned to me. He informed me that at night, he sees green monkeys out of his bedroom window. They go through the bins and then climb up to the roof above his bedroom. He told me that when I left that evening, I’d have to be careful because they had been watching and would attack the staff.

Obviously this did not happen.

But it got me thinking, how awful and intriguing it is that this man believed he had seen these monkeys and that he believed the staff were in danger of being attacked by them.

How scary must that be? To see something so bizarre but believe it is so real and true.

Since that day, I feel I empathise with my patients much more. Who am I to challenge their beliefs that are so real to them. As real to them as my name is to me. How would I feel if someone approached me tomorrow and told me that I am not me, everything I believe is false and I’m actually mentally unwell.

Imagine that your whole life is a lie. A lie that your own brain told you. Tricked you into believing that you are God, aliens are after you, your doctor is trying to poison you, you’re being followed by the FBI, you sister is actually a spy who isn’t your sister at all. These are all delusions that patients I have worked with have experienced.

I think we should all be more aware of mental health in our lives. We should be more empathetic towards people who suffer every day.

5 things that made me happy today

Waking up without an alarm – still pretty early but I woke up because my body wanted to, not because it was forced to by a screeching beeping noise coming from my phone.

Going to my physio appointment and being told that there are improvements since my last appointment.

Being told I look beautiful by my boyfriend and that he can see a difference since I’ve started going to the gym even if I can’t.

Going out for pancakes – by far my favourite food in the world.

My delivery of YouFoods – I decided on Wednesday to order a week of meals (lunch and dinners) to help with my healthy lifestyle change. Hopefully it’ll help!

I hope you all have a lovely Saturday and reflect on 5 things that make you happy too.

I need a hobby

I have never had a hobby. Ever.

I’ve always wanted one though. I loved when people would talk about theirs. Be it playing a sport or joining a group or doing something as simple as baking at home.

In the past I’ve thought about what sorts of things that I’d like to do:

Sewing
Baking
Writing
Drawing
Making cards

But I just cant commit to anything. I either lose my motivation or realise I’m not actually as good as I wish I was – which I know is ridiculous.

After years of wondering what I could do and thinking about what I am passionate about, I have recently come to the realisation that I love photography.

I’ve always loved taking photos, whether that be of my family at Christmas, holidays with friends, nature walks with the dogs or beautiful landscapes.

I’ve been using my Instagram to show off some of my photos so it would be awesome if you could all check them out and let me know what you think.

What’s your hobby? Have you ever thought of taking a photography course? Are you a photographer?

I’d love to hear from you guys

 

Autumn Dream

We always want what we cant have.

When it’s summer, we complain that we wish it was colder. In winter we dream of summer days and nights. I think due to these complaints, this is why I love spring and autumn. It’s an ‘in-between season’.

Warm enough to stop wearing cardigans in spring. We can start wearing lighter clothes and less layers but we still wake up to those crisp chilly mornings.

Cool enough in autumn to get your tights out, and layer up over your summer dresses and tops, getting as much wear out of them as you can before having to cover all of outfits with a big winter coat.

I love that in Melbourne, the weather has finally started to change so that the leaves are changing colour, the clouds are all over and the rain is dropping more than it has for the whole of 2017 so far.

I realised this week that I don’t own enough jumpers. I’ve looked so many places and thought I would list a few of my favourites:

 

  1. Flocked Star Knit – Country Road

Flocked Star

 

2. Floral Embroidered Jumper – Sportsgirl

Floral Embroidered Jumper

 

3. Honey Bunny Cardi – PrincessHighway

Honey Bunny

 

4. Pin Cushion Knit – Dangerfield

Pin Cushion Knit

 

5. Pom Pom Sweater – Seed

Pom Pom

 

6. Posies for You – Dotti

Posies For You

 

7. Sequin Humming Bird Knit – French Connection

Sequin Hummingbird

Here’s to tight and jumper weather!